Stop thinking of them!
My mind keep on thinking many things. Heard about the stories happened to my family. Really shut me down.
I just don't know what to say or to explain. It's hurting me a little bit.
It's been a long time that I missed hang out with my family.
And it's been a long time I don't cook for dinner. So yesterday, I made Chicken Beriani. They love it!
Alhamdulillah. My cooking's skill still great.
Another story, I need to make a choice. 2 good things in different ways. These make me feels guilty.
High school, UiTM, I hate to remember these memories. Hate to remember who I was before.
Islam by the name but not in the soul. Wearing hijab just to cover the outside. I'm so ashamed who I was before.
Many nights I cried to be forgiven is not enough. There is no way turning back to the past.
Undo that should not be do.
Am I able to turn back to be a good muslimah?
He almost perfect in many ways. My weaknesses are his advantages.
No sweet words used at all.
No love words.
Like he said - "tidak mengamalkan syubahah"
See! With this post, it shows my mind keep on thinking many things.
Okay. It's time to make cookies.
Sunday, July 13, 2014
Sunday, July 6, 2014
Ramadhan
Before Ramadhan, he asked me. What my preparation for Ramadhan? First time a guy ask me like that.So, i said my target is to khatam al-quran during this month. "Sempat ke?.. "
He said to me - How can you say like that? There is no excuse to say "tak sempat".
haish.. Okay.. i try my best to make it happen. Not to show off but to be as usual, once a year khatam al-quran.
You can do it! Gambateh!
So, he story to me what his family normally do for preparation. Celebrating Ramadhan is more happening than celebrating Syawal.
He thinking of me and then, gave me a "telekung". He said that i should wear a new "telekung" to meet Allah.
Make a different during Ramadhan.
Okay.. thanks for the advise. ^_^
He said to me - How can you say like that? There is no excuse to say "tak sempat".
haish.. Okay.. i try my best to make it happen. Not to show off but to be as usual, once a year khatam al-quran.
You can do it! Gambateh!
So, he story to me what his family normally do for preparation. Celebrating Ramadhan is more happening than celebrating Syawal.
He thinking of me and then, gave me a "telekung". He said that i should wear a new "telekung" to meet Allah.
Make a different during Ramadhan.
Okay.. thanks for the advise. ^_^
Tuesday, July 1, 2014
my ex
Its funny when i found out about my ex.. 6 years i've been with him but he never showed how happy he was during our relationship. Now, he has my replacement. His posts like he was so in love with his 'darling'.
My family said..he maybe wanna make me jealous or something. They said to me, don't bother about him anymore.
In fact, everytime i look at his posts, i will laugh. He is so werido! He never been like that before. Even he never put our picture into his profile picture.
I dont mad at all. I dont feel jealous at all. From my point of view, he choose a girl not a women.
What i realise the most, i'm so lucky that Allah save me from being together with him. A man who dont respect a women, such a useless man actually. Love is just sweet word.
All these days i continue laughing when think about him. How could i so deep in love with him but he never respect me at all. Budak maahad in the end become someone that suppose not to be. I pray for him to change.
If that type of girl that his mom will accept, me speechless okay.
If he read my post, me so glad. I wanna tell him that i have found a man better than him. A man who guide me more in Islam. Always put Allah in everything. Make me feels the sweetness of Islam. He is a man who at first never stop chasing me when i ignore him.
I choose a man because of Allah. My love only arise during the 'akad'. Thats my promise to Allah since my broke up before.
Alhamdulillah for the truth i have found out. Syukur ya Allah..
My family said..he maybe wanna make me jealous or something. They said to me, don't bother about him anymore.
In fact, everytime i look at his posts, i will laugh. He is so werido! He never been like that before. Even he never put our picture into his profile picture.
I dont mad at all. I dont feel jealous at all. From my point of view, he choose a girl not a women.
What i realise the most, i'm so lucky that Allah save me from being together with him. A man who dont respect a women, such a useless man actually. Love is just sweet word.
All these days i continue laughing when think about him. How could i so deep in love with him but he never respect me at all. Budak maahad in the end become someone that suppose not to be. I pray for him to change.
If that type of girl that his mom will accept, me speechless okay.
If he read my post, me so glad. I wanna tell him that i have found a man better than him. A man who guide me more in Islam. Always put Allah in everything. Make me feels the sweetness of Islam. He is a man who at first never stop chasing me when i ignore him.
I choose a man because of Allah. My love only arise during the 'akad'. Thats my promise to Allah since my broke up before.
Alhamdulillah for the truth i have found out. Syukur ya Allah..
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