Marriage

I feel tired with the matter of 'wedding'. Almost everyday the word's 'wedding' come to my ears.

With my cousins asked me, when??? She said if you have bf, why not just get married.
Is it that easy? I dont think so. I'm understand that marriage for Islam is ' menghalalkan yang haram' but for me marriage is more than that.

Frankly speaking, I also wanna get married but the responsibility as a wife and in future as a mum quite huge. I can imagine it with pack schedule as a wife, mother and employee. Quite tough right? I respect to those wanna get married means they are ready to hold up those responsibilities. 'Tabik spring' for you! :)

I promise to myself, if I able to manage myself especially in preparing breakfast at 5 am, lunch and dinner for my parents, it means that I'm ready to get married. Why? It is because I need to take care of my husband and mentua. Home cooking able to close more relationships. However to wake up at 5 am quite tough for me as I sleep late but during Ramadhan, wake up at 4 am very easy eventhough I sleep late. So how?

But I dont like this one person. The way she judge people is immature. eg, Who is she to say that this people is 'golongan orang musyrik' if scared to hold responsibility, 'kahwin lambat boleh ke arah zina' and etc. If you have a long relationship, zina  may not happen if not regularly seeing each other. Thus, my friend said that if a girl dont agree to do that 'thing', a boy not do it. However, I can forgive her as she is only 20 years old but she feel that she is mature enough as get married with early 20's. All her words actually really irritate me. I feel wanna block her in FB and no more post about dosa. 

I know that couple is dosa but what I can do right now is just minimise it as low as possible. Eg, no more holding hands. What to do as me and najib have plan to get married another 4 years (minimum) actually.  I just can wait and pray to be with him until the last breath. So sweet.. hehehe

Nothing much to write

Last night was so exhausted . I've re- do my CV coz my pendrive been affected by virus!
Damn! I need to get my passport picture to put in the CV .
Luckily I've found it in my Linkedln! haha
What so relieved!
I need to thank to my darling coz he has helped me a lot even though he's not well.

Today I feel a little bit dizzy. maybe coz not have much sleep last night.
I've cook paratha with sardin sambal. smell so good but I'm not yet have appetite to eat it.

Today's plan are attend my friend's wed yaya and fetch my mom and brothers at LCCT.
Going to LCCT give me experience in driving as I've never drive a car in this far.
A lot of thanks brother coz allow me to drive your car. hahaha

Quote for remember :
' Berserahlah pada Allah kerna sesungguhnya hanya-DIA yang menentukan qada' dan qadar kita dan kita hanya mampu berusaha dan berikhtiar demi untuk mendapatkan rezeki itu'

letter for me

Dear Siti Rahmah,

You've done with your very best effort during the exam. Those papers quite toughed but you able to puzzle it down eventough the answer you're given not strong enough. I know it is sad as you had studied really hard during the hard time. Just remember honey, with all those effort, sometimes without our expectation, the markers will feels it and gives pity marks. Just be positive. .

today is friday
1 more last paper to go
i wish my sickness gone
but recently i read this article about 'kenikmatan di sebalik kesakitan'

it open my eyes that every challenge given hiding a worth that cant be see
but later we can feel it and realise it
there are reasons why we need to face the challenges
for me, every challenge i experienced remind me every single sin that i've done
from there, i'm improving myself to be as good as possible to every people i loved

just for reminder to me
who know with a week i'm sick and exam fever
later on feb i've pass all papers with flying colours
i really need a luck right now ~

to motivate myself

today is wednesday and tomorrow is my 2nd exam paper
i've work hard since the 1st day of new sem
but now..
i dunno what to do
i'm sick and my father also not well
i hope all my hard work not wasted
please ya- ALLAH..
i really wanna pass all papers
many ques i've done and i've understand almost all basic knowledge

please rahmah.. please remember..
time management, stress management and specific application
with doa and ur hard work
everything will go through smoothly
what pass is pass
u've done well

the truth is ACCA is a gift to my parents
i can do it
caiyok!!!!!!!!!!!