So, while waiting my brother to come back home for good another a year (2015 maybe..) and take his car back, I set my own target to fulfill what I want.
- getting a new job with basic RM3k++
- saving start from bring my own home cook for lunch
- puasa sunat every monday and thursday
- no more korean depart
- only once a month - starbucks
Now I already okay - no more pain no more cry at night, no more hope
I back in track to be what i wanna be
To learn what I wanna learn
Build up my skills and make my bosses regret for not appreciate me
All their words keep on running in my mind and I will never forget it
A year to heal
A year I scared and not to trust any other guy everytime my friends and family try to match me with someone
I really need a sea to treasure back all the memories deep inside it.
That's why I join backpackers to Perhentian.
My friend, Azie understand me what me doing what I wanna do during Perhentian's holiday.
and that's my last cry for love and hope.
At that time I promise myself. never open and accept any other guy until the right time comes.
I only open my heart if someone who never give up on me, shows that he really want me as his life partner and always put Allah and family as his priority. I know it is hard to find that guy. Sooner or later that guy will find me. I just follow the flow.
"Ku berdoa agar cintaku berputik lagi bak bunga ros merah kembang di taman.
Andai kebahagiaan yang diimpikan tidak dimiliki sekarang, ku redha.
Jika ini hukumanku atas dosa-dosa ku yang lalu, ku redha ya Allah.
Seperti janjiku pada-Mu dulu, cintaku biarlah pada-Mu dulu.
Sayangku hanya pada jodohku dan berputik ketika akad.."
