feeling bored

What a meaning of I.L.U?
I thought it could be i like you..but majority said it is i love you?
Really? Neway..whatever.. say no to LOVE until the day its come.

I have kept a saving for my 'wedding'.  However..as my relationship with him ended..so i use that money going to korea! What so relief!! Now i can enjoy my money and think of future later..

Yesterday was history.. tomorrow is mystery..

If a men want me..just plz accept my family. How bad they are..they still my family.

Whatever it is.. life must go on. He that really dont want me, now i can move on without him. Such a relief after seen his messages with my friend. Love is such a liar. I hate a guy with sweet words like him.

No more guy younger than me. I take back all my words before and he just not worthy to have my love back. Say no to KEDAH!!

HiM

its quite long i don't write here. many stories gone through of my life for the past 4 months. the stories tearing of my heart from day to day. everytime i fall i try to move on.

him.. i really miss him from day to day, cry every night. i'll try to move on by remembering all of his words. i remember the way he smile, the way he laugh, the way he care of me, the way he thought me about real world.. everything about him haunted me every night.

with him.. i can be myself.. i can talk what ever go through my heart and mind. he just follow my flow. when i cry, he with soft voice motivate me. he just so perfect to me and i really love him with all my heart and soul.

because of my parents, he made a way leaving me deadly. this is all because he does not have luxuries to show off to my family. thats why he cant see my parents. if he really love me too, whatever my family think about him, he will ignore it. he will find a way to grab my family's love. but.. he dont want take any chance.

why my life now turn upside down.. in the end, i really cant move on. :(

from the bottom of my heart

My heart feels so down.. the way people thought about me..making false stories but still they doesn't feel guilty at all..  its not me that have wrong thoughts but people surrounding me shows it..
Its ok but frankly speaking its not ok..
Hey..takaful..islamic supposely support each other..
But then..islamic just by their names n appearances..
They open my eyes that not everyone truly friend with you..
Its not a story that i created but story that i felt within 7months working with takaful people..
Which majority is malay.. what a mess of my working life..

Frustrating

It's been 5 weeks I've experienced in working life. Quite tough actually and many things to be learned push me to seek it by myself. Several mistakes I've made and these are lessons for me to be remembered and to be cautious.

At first I thought that handling cash flow and investment are simple tasks. Some of my colleagues  are envy to me as I don't have much workload as compared to them. However, my thought is actually meaningless. I forget on my brother's advice that never think the work is easy. His true though.. Since 5 weeks, I acted like a child. Just follow what people instruct me to do. Never think deeply and never questioning them.

After I've been scolded by the General Manager and I've simply made transfer of fund as I forget about 3 days advance reserve's rule for above RM100K.. I'm really frustrated! Now I'm so worry about the future cash flow of the company. I've ruined it even though it's just a little.

Starting from today, never acting like a childish anymore. I need to wake up and think maturely. To my boss, I'm really sorry for what I've done. No more mistakes please..

Morning Motivation

Nowadays I had realized that anything happens that would makes me feel emotion and burst into tears always came from me . Before that I keep blaming to the others . Kind of immature right ?
Thank you to the people around me that always support me and change me from day-to-day .
Think positive and never give up . I have a STRONG nerves to face the challenge ! YEAH ! :D

Happiest Day

Such a relief when me and him finally met together after almost 3 months yet seen each other. All my stress and unhappiness were gone today and its like just me and him in our own world .

Today activities : watched Ghost Rider 2 , spent RM 200 voucher for books and ate at Sari Ratu .

The Ghost Rider 2 not really the best action movie . RM 24 spent on the tickets such a wasted . What I thought about the movie was different when it played . But as long as I can sit beside him for 2 hours watched it together , its never mind . hahaha.. weirdo~

Then , we went to MPH search for the books to buy . All books bought were motivation's type . At first I thought that this type of book quite boring but when we read together , it is really interesting . Thanks to Allah for this rezeki YEY ! ! !

Lastly , we went to Sari Ratu ( Indonesian food) . The best dining together since 5 years couple . hehehe . .

Today is my happiest day ever . Hope I can date with him again but I need to wait another 2 months . Just be patient Rahmah :)

Going to move in working life

Okay , I need somebody to tell me how is it the real working life? Is it really stressful? Why this happened?
hehehe . . . don't worry Rahmah . Just leave it to Allah :)

Any things happened have its own reason behind it. Just remember that Rahmah .