HiM

its quite long i don't write here. many stories gone through of my life for the past 4 months. the stories tearing of my heart from day to day. everytime i fall i try to move on.

him.. i really miss him from day to day, cry every night. i'll try to move on by remembering all of his words. i remember the way he smile, the way he laugh, the way he care of me, the way he thought me about real world.. everything about him haunted me every night.

with him.. i can be myself.. i can talk what ever go through my heart and mind. he just follow my flow. when i cry, he with soft voice motivate me. he just so perfect to me and i really love him with all my heart and soul.

because of my parents, he made a way leaving me deadly. this is all because he does not have luxuries to show off to my family. thats why he cant see my parents. if he really love me too, whatever my family think about him, he will ignore it. he will find a way to grab my family's love. but.. he dont want take any chance.

why my life now turn upside down.. in the end, i really cant move on. :(